My Thoughtful Spot

to my hubbie. Today I'm making a black forest cake (yumm!), wrapping up some gifts and trying to spiffy the house up a little bit. It's my hubbie's birthday.

44 yrs ago a brave little girl gave her baby up for adoption. To her, I say THANK YOU for giving him life. I hope some time I can meet you.

8 months from now another mother took him into her heart, soul and home. She raised him, loved him, put up with him for a number of difficult years and derserves many a THANK YOU as well!

It's that time of year. I always find myself *too* emotional (who says how much is too much I ask?). We should be having a happy 15th birthday party in the next few weeks, but we're not. I still see so well the wiggly little body on the ultra sound screen. The beating little heart. The arms and legs waving all over the place. I didn't know to say goodbye. I had no idea that was the last time I'd see my little darling.

It was just the next day. The pain was so bad I almost couldn't help but cry. The blood so heavy they prepped me for transfusion.

I never said goodbye.

I had an entry saved but quite frankly it's sounds stilted and stupid. so I deleted it. Now I'm going to get some work done and I'll try to share later.

I think I'm going to try and find a way to share pictures that gives me a little bigger pic here than flickr does. is that possible?

I'll find out later. For now? TTFN.

Is anyone else as sick of spam as I am? People need something better to do than set up those stupid automated whateverthehecktheyare's!

There. Vent over. Hubbie gets to stay home all day today,as do I! Unless I decide to take the kids to the park with a friend. We haven't decided which day to do this yet. However, it's looking overcast and the forecast says rain so I think today is rather unlikely. maybe I can get some CLEANUP done! Whoot, what a concept.

Tomorrow I have to take him to work early, Wednesday I'm home till evening, Thursday I make his birthday cake and Friday I take him to work WAY early. Somewhere in there I have to get to walmart and pick up his gift. Not sharing that here, he reads my blog. Other secrets shall have to remain untalked about too. Dang, this is no fun! Maybe I should password protect an entry and not give him the password? buwahahahaha

Ok. It's off to find the clothes I want to wear today, get James a drink and then get to work. Perhaps I should eat something in there too, I suppose. Just maybe the spam is done for today?

I need to get my clicking done too. I'm over $50. whoo hoo!

Thats what I am. I'm puttering. Not getting much done, but moving a little at least. Katie fed everyone for me, God bless her. Brianna is watching Hellen Keller, James playing the N64. It's sort of quiet. I ... I need to accomplish SOMETHING. Motivation for me, anyone? Please?

Oh and how... from Brianna blowing bubbles in her milk and spilling it on her clothes 2 minutes AFTER it was time to leave, to her hair elastic breaking as we were walking out the door - my day has been one of THOSE. Now, at 1 am, I am baking a black forest birthday cake. Had I known what my day would be like I would never had said "I'll do it"... but how are we to know such things?? At least it's quiet. james is awake, he just wandered downstairs.. but I'll about to tuck him back in and peace will reign again. That helps.

But I'd still rather be in bed!

or.. maybe.. I'd like to be here....

ok, so it's been too long. I'm here, sorta. Today is a little wild and I have forty kazillion things (give or take a million) to do.

Hubbie and I went out on a date today. I spent a whole $10. A pair of jeans for my older daughter - 99 cents. Some craft paper - 120 sq feet for $1.98. 10 packages of modelling clay for $1.00. It went on, and on. It was FUN!

anyways. Now I have to get it put away. And the kitchen tidied up. And... you know. I'll be back, Promise!