My Thoughtful Spot

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It's been a while. I've been feeling a little anti social I guess you could say. I get this way sometimes, my poor scrambled brain decides it can't take people and off it takes me whether I like it or not. Generally I don't. It doesn't ask. I'm assuming the part of my brain that is damaged by MS not only houses my ability to type (lol) but also my social skills. They aren't what they used to be, without a doubt. But you know... thats just who I am now. Unfortunately despite the years of trying to change it I've not succeeded. I've had to come to the realization that I CAN NOT. Not something easy for me, to admit that I can't change something I don't like about myself. So, I've had to allow myself to have these times where I just disappear from life. when I do talk to someone I have a very hard time putting words into a sentence that actually makes sense and isn't short and terse. Most assume I don't want to talk and leave me alone. who can blame them!

anyways. I think I'm starting out of this place. I'm glad, it's not where I like to be. It leaves me rather lonely as well as antsy and not able to accomplish much. Today I plan to accomplish a lot of laundry at the very least. I also have a birthday party to go to - a precious little girl I babysit sometimes. I want to go and have FUN.

I'll try to be back before so many days have passed. Maybe.