My Thoughtful Spot

I have it down to a science. Just how to wheel up to what so I can get what I need. I've always been good at leaving dishes in the drainer so usually i can find what I need within reach right there. Knew there was a reason i did that... lol

So, cereal out, bowls, milk, (whoever left the milk in a sticky spot gets to wash my pants) all set. two bowls of cereal as James wants his "good morning snack" too. Hand him his with a little fear and trepidation. put it all away which involves a little zipping around the kitchen and a little back and forth to get at just the right angle to reach things. Finally ready to dig in.

Forgot to put milk on mine.

ARRRRGGGHHH.

Just now realized I forgot my meds. Thats not so bad however, out to the kitchen and back? You won't notice I was gone. The dog cowers however, as in my maiden run I ran into her kennel. Poor thing is traumatized for life.

I'll let you know how lunch goes. I'm trying not to even THINK about it yet!

MRI is over, I survived. Ativan kicked in about 10 min before it was over. I did a LOT of praying in there. Ladies said they got some great pictures. Wonder if I can have copies for scrapping? lol

Tomorrow I hope to hear from the neurologist. I'll be calling her if she doesn't call me. we'll see what she has to say.

James took this with my camera phone. He does great with a regular camera, but the phone one needs too much "still" for too long. It's a little blurry. And the background leaves a little to be desired. We'll get better when Katie gets home

Saw the neuro. Have an MRI tomorrow or Monday at the latest. It could be an MS flare up, it could be a stroke. I have very limited feeling up past my belly button (almost to my bra) and no reflexes in my legs.

Thats the short version. Completely not up to a longer version.

spinal stenosis is not related to MS. I can't help but wonder tho, as I read the symptoms of spinal stenosis, whether that has been the problem all along. Maybe? It will be some time (if ever?) before we'll have an answer to that but it's definately a question in my mind right now.

Here is a good source of some pretty basic information about spinal stenosis. I'm only learning as I go too. and maybe in a day or two this will be crossed off as a possiblity. Who knows!

I needed another possible dx thrown at me. I went to the Dr today. It's a fairly lengthy walk to where her office is from the parking lot and for reasons unknown even to me I declined a chair. So, by the time I got there I wasn't really walking. I was a person on two things that looked like legs, with two canes and a husband desperately trying to hold her up. I fell a few times, he always caught me. God Bless the man. The Dr was very concerned, as was the nurse, when I walked (well, whatever I did) into the office. I didn't look at them. I got into the room I was supposed to be in and fell into the chair. Then I met their eyes. Thats the thing with having a dr who truly cares about you, watching the emotion in their eyes when they see something like this happening to you. All professional, yes. But a heckuva lot of caring too. I walked for her, across the office. Well, I tried. I grabbed marks hand on the way by going one way and didn't move from hanging on to the desk coming back until I had both their hands. She's sending me for an emergency CT of the spine, and tomorrow I see Dr Pniak (neurologist). It "could" be spinal stenosis, which is correctable with surgery. Spinal surgery terrifies me, and yet.... "correctable" is appealing to me I must say.

so. Thats where I'm at. I have a walker which does do a better job than the two canes was doing. Mark and Katie attached a back back to it so I can carry my 'stuff'. Tonight I want nothing more than to climb into the tub, but hubbie went to work and I don't know that I could get out -- so the jury is out on that one. Tonight, for the first time in forever, I didn't say goodbye to hubbie at the door, standing there waving at him as he drove away. Some changes really suck and while that may be a small one it's a hard one for me.

It may be MS, it maybe me stenosis, nobody knows. The CT will tell us yes or no on the stenosis and we can go from there.

Welcome to a little bit of my world!

walking with two canes and still falling numerous times a day. Spilling more drink than getting in my mouth. Getting dressed takes 15 minutes, putting a load of laundry in the washer and folding a load of towels leaves me exhausted.

How long will this go on? Nobody has any idea.